I'll love you no matter what

It's 7:18am. and I have only had maybe an hour if not more of sleep.
I've been crying since last night, I heard my husband or possibly ex husband say that he was done with me, he didn't even tell me he told his mom.

I'm tired of him opening up to his mom not me, didn't he choose me to be his wife so that he can talk to me? If I am feeling shitty I let him know.

Last night We had a huge burst out, he called my mom to come over which in my opinion was stupid and childish wah wah wah my wife didn't let me sleep in the room, get over it. You treat me like dirt you sleep downstairs, it was not going to kill him now was it? No.

He came home banging on the door and this was scaring the crap out of me and I was so scared to open the door because i thought he was going to attack me I seriousally thought that. I am scared for him to touch me right now,

But yet, I am more terrified of us not being together anymore. Maybe he's been waiting for an excuse for us to break up.

I don't know.

What I do know is I am so deeply and madly in love with this man and I even though I have the biggest migraine and My heart is filled with nothing but pain I want nothing more for him to come home and just tell me exactly how much he loves me and everything else. I don't count on him doing that... He might be leaving me today. I don't know... But I am scared of that. I've never been so in love before...

I just never wanted rhylan growing up with a mom and dad around him 24/7. it sucks!

Please god. Please. I pray to you this morning asking you to help with our problems and help us work this out.

I don't believe in divorce but we do have to, I will never re-marry again. I love this man for the long haul, I actually meant it when I said "I do" Until death do us part for me anyway. Maybe he lied, and thought it's what he wanted.

Please,Please.

I will always Love you George... weather you do or don't. that's your decision but you'll always have the key to my heart.