Gym, Didn't happen tonight I decided that I wanted to try the P90X and boy oh boy did i feel like i was already at the gym.. haha. anywho so i am getting closer to achieving my goal/goals. like i said over the weekend i checked my weight and i had lost 6 pounds whoo hoo that means i have 58 more pounds to go... anywho so i am doing good on my other goals.. i am almost done with my 13th book. so that means i only have 87 more books to read. that's awesome (: well if any of you have any suggestions on books or weight loss or whatever bring them to my attention!! please and thank you.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
thrilled!!
so it took alot of talking to my husband saturday to get threw to him that i really want him to open up i didn't know what was going to happen when i approached him crying, so the jealousy is gone thank god, because who really wants to be jealous of her? so we're getting back a good amount of money for income tax. so he's getting a projector and a screen so he's happy about that then in a few months we're going to buy ME a 65 inch t.v (; whoo hoo! haha. so the good part about everything that has happened lately? claudia is out of my life.. for good. and my husband hates her i am still upset about the whole ilissa thing.. but i can't do anything to change her mind all i can do is be there if she ever needs anything and do as much as i can for her (which i already do) and her mom and even her gma can vouch for that, we got her quite a bit for christmas i think she got more than my son did, lol. from... us anyway. so saturday night is Victoria+George spending time together so we're cuddling on the couch almost had sex haha. but i was way drunk... he made me uhh.. about 3 margaritas and i was GONEE! he was serving them to me because idk for some reason when i make them i can't drink em but when he made em i was like pour me another.. him and my awesomess brother in law david can make the ritas. haha so i was laying down and then when i can't have anymore and i get up to hook my cell to the charger it hits me... i'm drunk off my ass. LOL i was like babe im goin to bed and i really did go to bed. but we had a good time.. but now we need to buy some more Tequila LOL.. but NOW... to the uber fantastic NEWS!!! so we go to H-E-B to go and get a few groceries so on the way out i'm like okay i'm gonna weigh my self and see what the deal is on how my week went.. and guesss what? I LOST 6 POUNDSSSS! omg. how terrific is that? so that means i only have 58 more pounds to go!! let's get this done baby! whoo hoo. congradulate me because i am thrilled!! only a short time and i'll be shopping at forever 21 (skinny biotch store) to buy me an outfit to celebrate my loosing all the weight that i wanted to dinner (; whoo hoo. I think that I deserve it since I did my best to work it outttt baby. well that's all for now. good night everyone!!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
my heart breaks over and over again
I don't know why he can't just talk to me he won't defend and it would kill him before he gave me a sincere compliment or just say that's he proud of me not only to be his wife but because I have stuck by him when I have never ever been more miserable in my life, I have never had my heart broken when I've loved someone so much and when they've never cheated on me.. I just think he still has feelings for his ex. maybe 2 of them but he won't talk to me and him telling me the truth weather it's great or not so great would be better than leaving me in the dark It just really sucks not being able to talk to anyone about this.. who understands and I really hope nobody goes threw this and I honestly believe that he is being so sel-fish and only thinking of himself i mean we don't have sex and the last time i was truly happy non stop? i can't even remember. but the thing is I am madly in love with him but it doesn't help that my heart aches so much. I am at lost on what to do anymore, I just hope he realizes there needs to be change before it's way too late.
Friday, February 19, 2010
i can't get her out of my mind
Why am i obsessing over her i ask you? why? the answer is.. i don't know.
i jealousy is raging because she is skinny, and i'm not.
and his other ex jennifer is skinny and i am not... why is he with me?
why? and it makes it worse that Ilissa likes claudia and not me.
I am sick... and I need help to get rid of this.
I love my husband more than anything and he says the same about me,... but Is he lying or is it the truth? when I met him I was skinny, then i got pregnant.
i jealousy is raging because she is skinny, and i'm not.
and his other ex jennifer is skinny and i am not... why is he with me?
why? and it makes it worse that Ilissa likes claudia and not me.
I am sick... and I need help to get rid of this.
I love my husband more than anything and he says the same about me,... but Is he lying or is it the truth? when I met him I was skinny, then i got pregnant.
jealousy and tears
So I now finally know what that skank looks like the only thing I am jelous of though.. is her body.
she has no boobs or an ass but she's skinny and I am so jealous that I am actually here blogging with tears in my eyes holding them back until my mom leaves because I don't want her to see me crying but as soon as she leaves... here come the water works!! I mean this woman was not allowed in my apartment in anyway whoever that skank told to come up here did but I guess I am jealous of her overall my husband used to be with her but I did get the better end I got the ring and I rock his last name... but that still doesn't make me feel any better...my heart is filled with pain and I can't stop shaking...Ugh. I hate this feeling I have never felt this way before sure I've hated some exes I hate another one of my husbands Exes Jennifer Morales-Barerra and then there was Nicole from my ex robert but never felt this jealous before, IDK why I don't think Claudia, is even that attractive. She's dark short and ugly. the one thing i wish i had was the fact that she could probally make someone a better wife than I ever will be able to do. the 2nd? Ilissa likes her and Ilissa probally hates me. I do what I can for her even if she does continue to hate me, I can't change her mind about that.. I just hate feeling so jealous and I don't know how to stop it and it makes it worse that I can put a face to the name. It is tearing me up inside... well that's all for now.
she has no boobs or an ass but she's skinny and I am so jealous that I am actually here blogging with tears in my eyes holding them back until my mom leaves because I don't want her to see me crying but as soon as she leaves... here come the water works!! I mean this woman was not allowed in my apartment in anyway whoever that skank told to come up here did but I guess I am jealous of her overall my husband used to be with her but I did get the better end I got the ring and I rock his last name... but that still doesn't make me feel any better...my heart is filled with pain and I can't stop shaking...Ugh. I hate this feeling I have never felt this way before sure I've hated some exes I hate another one of my husbands Exes Jennifer Morales-Barerra and then there was Nicole from my ex robert but never felt this jealous before, IDK why I don't think Claudia, is even that attractive. She's dark short and ugly. the one thing i wish i had was the fact that she could probally make someone a better wife than I ever will be able to do. the 2nd? Ilissa likes her and Ilissa probally hates me. I do what I can for her even if she does continue to hate me, I can't change her mind about that.. I just hate feeling so jealous and I don't know how to stop it and it makes it worse that I can put a face to the name. It is tearing me up inside... well that's all for now.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
the stress is gone.. sort of.
Today has been quite a day, I slept too late.
but overall me & rhylan had a really great day, I love our alone time it's actually very special to me and I get to play with him and tickle him and even tell him "no no rhylan" but yeah he's the most important person in my life along with my sexy husband and my beautiful mother. they all mean the world to me and I would do absolutely do anything and everything to protect them in every way!!!
anywho- well that skank claudia has agreed to just have someone come and pick up the t.v so tomorrow around 5pm it will be gone and we will no longer have to deal with her in our lives anymore I think me & my husband just need to finally be happy together and once and for all get rid of the exes which she is now out of the picture, and it's funny how he said she's not attractive. lol
but although we didn't get a good paycheck but now we have some bills to pay this weekend...
gotta rent a t.v until the projector comes then we have our cell phones to pay then we have to pay a loan ugh.= stressful.
anywho- well my inlaws are coming tomorrow and i am pretty damn excited about that!
well i guess that's all for tonight. going to do the P90X and clean some more because the in laws will be here either tomorrow or Saturday and I've got a lot of cleaning to do and then sunday hopefully me and george can go & see Gayla about these kind of shakes she drinks to loose weight. I wanna be sexy as ever by July 19. my 2-1st birthday! hoo rah!
but overall me & rhylan had a really great day, I love our alone time it's actually very special to me and I get to play with him and tickle him and even tell him "no no rhylan" but yeah he's the most important person in my life along with my sexy husband and my beautiful mother. they all mean the world to me and I would do absolutely do anything and everything to protect them in every way!!!
anywho- well that skank claudia has agreed to just have someone come and pick up the t.v so tomorrow around 5pm it will be gone and we will no longer have to deal with her in our lives anymore I think me & my husband just need to finally be happy together and once and for all get rid of the exes which she is now out of the picture, and it's funny how he said she's not attractive. lol
but although we didn't get a good paycheck but now we have some bills to pay this weekend...
gotta rent a t.v until the projector comes then we have our cell phones to pay then we have to pay a loan ugh.= stressful.
anywho- well my inlaws are coming tomorrow and i am pretty damn excited about that!
well i guess that's all for tonight. going to do the P90X and clean some more because the in laws will be here either tomorrow or Saturday and I've got a lot of cleaning to do and then sunday hopefully me and george can go & see Gayla about these kind of shakes she drinks to loose weight. I wanna be sexy as ever by July 19. my 2-1st birthday! hoo rah!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
an exgirlfriend gone wrong
There is this BIG slut named Claudia Hernandez either residing in Corpus Christi TX or Flour Bluff TX she has been starting shit ever since I came into his life banging on his/our door calling him non stop even one time i saw a text message from her on his phone at 2 in the morning, who freaking does that!! stupid girl. well anyway so she put a 72-73 inch t.v in her name at conns on credit after only 2 months of dating him and even during that time he said that he was never in love with her even though they lasted not even a year. haha stupid girl.
anywho so now she's suing my husband and me i guess you could say since I am the M-R-S IN HIS LIFE. I Just can't believe this drama...
see the thing is i talked crap to her a few months back and that she doesn't go threw him b/c i don't think it's an appropriate situation calling MY husband from 3pm until 2-3am. that's physco-ish and stalker-ish, and not even respectful to his wife if you have something to say you can come to my place calmly and knock (not bang heffer) this stupid skank bangs down the damn door as if she is the police or something, but yes. this is true about Claudia aka SKANK. Hernandez
even my beautiful mother in law and my awesomest sister in law have agreed with me on this. HAHAH dumb heffer you can't have my ring and can't have my amazing in laws you want to know why? because my husband HATES your kids and said when he saw you crying because of how screwed up your kids are he would say in his head... that it was ur fault they were the way they are and that he never wanted his daughter around ur kids and never loved you and never wanted to marry you and with me we had a gorgous baby boy and was married within 9 months. love falls hard and fast when your in love, and NO I did not make him marry me he's the only who always told me he couldn't wait to have a family of our own and he PROPOSED on XMAS EVE!!
STUPID, STUPID GIRL.
anywho so now she's suing my husband and me i guess you could say since I am the M-R-S IN HIS LIFE. I Just can't believe this drama...
see the thing is i talked crap to her a few months back and that she doesn't go threw him b/c i don't think it's an appropriate situation calling MY husband from 3pm until 2-3am. that's physco-ish and stalker-ish, and not even respectful to his wife if you have something to say you can come to my place calmly and knock (not bang heffer) this stupid skank bangs down the damn door as if she is the police or something, but yes. this is true about Claudia aka SKANK. Hernandez
even my beautiful mother in law and my awesomest sister in law have agreed with me on this. HAHAH dumb heffer you can't have my ring and can't have my amazing in laws you want to know why? because my husband HATES your kids and said when he saw you crying because of how screwed up your kids are he would say in his head... that it was ur fault they were the way they are and that he never wanted his daughter around ur kids and never loved you and never wanted to marry you and with me we had a gorgous baby boy and was married within 9 months. love falls hard and fast when your in love, and NO I did not make him marry me he's the only who always told me he couldn't wait to have a family of our own and he PROPOSED on XMAS EVE!!
STUPID, STUPID GIRL.
Monday, February 15, 2010
my life as it comes for this day, today.
So, This is my first real blog in over 3 years.
So let's start this first blog with everything that I am feeling and with all of the goals that I have in store for myself.
1. I want to loose about 65-70 pounds, I want a flat stomach and my arms chins calvs and everything else toned up I want to be the girl that when i pass other girls in the mall they turn and stare and say "look at that skinny girl who thinks she's all that just because she's skinny" yes, I want to be the girl that YOUR jealous of. I'm not conceded I just know what I want because when there is a girl passing by me I envy her because I want her body shape and don't have it, but I call them a Heffer.
2. I want to be able to run and not just for 5 minutes or even 30 I want to be just like Tara Costa, and be able to run a freaking marathon that would be amazing. She is one of the people who happens to be a semi/celebrity who i look up too, she was on the biggest loser about 2 seasons ago, I just want to have that fulfilling feeling about finally accomplishing something.
3. I want to get my GED or even Diploma, but I don't want to go back to a regular High School.
I want to then go to college for my degree in to be an Ultrasound Tech., that's my dream then from there also go for a 2nd degree in writing/poetry or something for as long as I can remember I'm always be in love with writing and been in love with photography. so that's my thing.
4. I want to write a book even if it only sells 100 copies I don't need to be the most famous writer/novelist/author or whatever, I don't need to be Stephenie Meyer,Lauren Myracle,Nicholas Sparks, Judy BLume,Sarah Dessen or anyone else I just want to see a book of MINE being published I would love that, I want to do book signings I want to do that, I'm not in it for the fame, I'm in it for just to be able to do 2 things that I love... I love reading and I love writing and I would love to be able to say to my child, my family for that matter... GUESS WHAT? I'VE BEEN PUBLISHED. That would mean more than the world to me.
5. I want have read 100 books by the time 2011 gets here. I have so far read... ttyl,ttfn,l8r g8r by Lauren Myracle.. Twilight,New Moon,Eclipse & breaking dawn by Stephenie Meyer; Dear John by Nicholas Sparks ; Bras and broomsticks and frogs and french kisses by Sarah Mylowski
so that means I have 90 more books to read. I am now reading.. spells and sleeping bags by Sarah Mylowski so if any of you have any suggestions as for books to read please don't hesitate. and let me know what the books are about.
6. I want to improve me and George's marriage, I want to do more things together like cooking together working out together or anything I think we should have something to do together and then something else we could do as a family. I think it would really help us get even more closer than we already are.
7. and finally be a good wife to be able to know how to cook more dishes clean more and clean faster. to be the wife he can't wait to come home too, to a clean home and very nice smelling home of food and cleanse.
that is all i have for now maybe tomorrow something will be different.
for now the top ones are..
ged diploma.
write book.
get my 2 degrees.
let's make this happen.
I LOVE YOU George & Rhylan (:
So let's start this first blog with everything that I am feeling and with all of the goals that I have in store for myself.
1. I want to loose about 65-70 pounds, I want a flat stomach and my arms chins calvs and everything else toned up I want to be the girl that when i pass other girls in the mall they turn and stare and say "look at that skinny girl who thinks she's all that just because she's skinny" yes, I want to be the girl that YOUR jealous of. I'm not conceded I just know what I want because when there is a girl passing by me I envy her because I want her body shape and don't have it, but I call them a Heffer.
2. I want to be able to run and not just for 5 minutes or even 30 I want to be just like Tara Costa, and be able to run a freaking marathon that would be amazing. She is one of the people who happens to be a semi/celebrity who i look up too, she was on the biggest loser about 2 seasons ago, I just want to have that fulfilling feeling about finally accomplishing something.
3. I want to get my GED or even Diploma, but I don't want to go back to a regular High School.
I want to then go to college for my degree in to be an Ultrasound Tech., that's my dream then from there also go for a 2nd degree in writing/poetry or something for as long as I can remember I'm always be in love with writing and been in love with photography. so that's my thing.
4. I want to write a book even if it only sells 100 copies I don't need to be the most famous writer/novelist/author or whatever, I don't need to be Stephenie Meyer,Lauren Myracle,Nicholas Sparks, Judy BLume,Sarah Dessen or anyone else I just want to see a book of MINE being published I would love that, I want to do book signings I want to do that, I'm not in it for the fame, I'm in it for just to be able to do 2 things that I love... I love reading and I love writing and I would love to be able to say to my child, my family for that matter... GUESS WHAT? I'VE BEEN PUBLISHED. That would mean more than the world to me.
5. I want have read 100 books by the time 2011 gets here. I have so far read... ttyl,ttfn,l8r g8r by Lauren Myracle.. Twilight,New Moon,Eclipse & breaking dawn by Stephenie Meyer; Dear John by Nicholas Sparks ; Bras and broomsticks and frogs and french kisses by Sarah Mylowski
so that means I have 90 more books to read. I am now reading.. spells and sleeping bags by Sarah Mylowski so if any of you have any suggestions as for books to read please don't hesitate. and let me know what the books are about.
6. I want to improve me and George's marriage, I want to do more things together like cooking together working out together or anything I think we should have something to do together and then something else we could do as a family. I think it would really help us get even more closer than we already are.
7. and finally be a good wife to be able to know how to cook more dishes clean more and clean faster. to be the wife he can't wait to come home too, to a clean home and very nice smelling home of food and cleanse.
that is all i have for now maybe tomorrow something will be different.
for now the top ones are..
ged diploma.
write book.
get my 2 degrees.
let's make this happen.
I LOVE YOU George & Rhylan (:
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