Divorce.

Yes, It is true I am getting a divorce.

I don't know if George knows it's coming or not but I really don't care anymore I've been talking to my attorneys all week and waiting for the meeting to figure out what exactly is going to happen and when i figure out each step of the way then I'll tell everyone who deserves to know, but all the friends know what is going on just not the family because I know that they will try and talk me out of it or say go to church and it will help my marriage or go to consuling. But Seriousally I am done I just really want to find someone to be with someone who is going to help me and is going to support me in anything and everything that I want to do, & George isn't doing that. I've tried working on this with him but how can i make it work with him if I am the only one trying? So, I am done. I love him but i'm not in love anymore I have moved on with him at my side and that isn't right but this is why we need to divorce I asked for a seperation and he said if I leave then it's done so you know what let it be then. I wasn't such a bitch to him and now that's what is happening and I don't want that, I want and need and deserve to be happy and he deserves the same and the only way we can do that is if we move on with our lives and be the best possible parents to a 2 year old.

Plus- I kind of met someone and nothing is serious and I've only been talking to him a few weeks and george has heard me talk about him but probally doesn't know what is going on... and I'm gonna go visit him soon. I really like this guy and he just makes me feel special. But Idk- what will happen weather or not this works out I just hope I can be his friend because I enjoy the conversations we have. I just know I need to move on with my life and learn how to be the independent mom who can stand on her own 2 feet without help from anyone, I have to do this for my son and for me. But mainly for him. I love you baby!

I just want to find happiness and I don't know if i ever will.... but I know it's alot worse being here because if he touches me im annoyed tries kissing me i just want to hit him calls me babe i would beat him and thats not healthy, this marriage is over. I tried he didn't, i'm not the one to blame I can't make a make this marriage work on my own he has to meet me half way and he failed to do so and he was given way to many chances and screwed up and made me feel like crap. GAME OVER.